senza utilita... senza luce

(...) in need of light, a lot of light, a considerable amount of light, an unbearable amount of light ... in my room, my life, my outside. dove c'e? dove fosse?

Bellezza: http://it.youtube.com/watch?v=r3XTaU1yKtM

Noi sereni e semplici o cupi ed acidi,
Noi puri e candidi o un po' colpevoli
Per voglie che ardono:
Noi cerchiamo la bellezza ovunque.
E noi compresi e amabili o offesi e succubi
Di demoni e lupi, noi forti ed abili
O spenti all'angolo:
Noi cerchiamo la bellezza ovunque.
E passiamo spesso il tempo cosi,
Senza utilita (quella che piace a voi)
Senza utilita (perch non serve a noi).

It is closely related to a previous post with the dice.
6 = luce= f**k bellezza 'senza utilita'!

P.S.: silentio stampa

P.S.: silentio stampa.

P.P.S.: going to change ways/ switch paths. (whether countries, whether people, whether general setting: no further information to be provided!) how refreshing this idea of change!

3 X P. & S.: yesterday evening/ night was very much needed and helped me get back to life after the bullshit from yesterday morning. many thanks for the considerable amount of drinking, smoking, talking, dancing go to... :-)! (you know it! amazing how you've been lately around whenever needed. )

4 X P. & S.: silentio stampa.

Disclaimer: many apologies go to all those who read my posts and don't understand one single idea. I warned you: these posts are generally representative of my current feelings and quite specific with regards to situations and people involved. Most of the times, they need and wish to stay private!!

P.S. Disclaimer: many thanks go to discrete people.

Facil de Entender

This is why I avoid discussions when in a couple. When you hear the phrase "let's discuss/ we need to communicate" more than once a month, then just let it be! It works as long as there is no need for a flow of words, explanations and the rest. Fortunately, no need for me to verbalize anything at the moment :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rjn0YDbInuA

Talvez por não saber falar de cor, imaginei.
Talvez por saber o que não será melhor, aproximei.
Meu corpo é o teu corpo, o desejo entregue a nós.
Sei lá eu o que queres dizer.
Despedir-me de ti,
"Adeus, um dia, voltarei a ser feliz."
Eu já não sei se sei o que é sentir o teu amor, não sei o que é sentir.
Se por falar, falei, pensei que se falasse era fácil de entender...

Talvez por não saber falar de cor, imaginei.
Triste é o virar de costas, o último adeus, sabe Deus o que quero dizer.
Obrigado por saberes cuidar de mim, tratar de mim, olhar p'ra mim.
Escutar quem sou.
E se ao menos tudo fosse igual a ti...

Eu já não sei se sei o que é sentir o teu amor, não sei o que é sentir.
Se por falar, falei, pensei que se falasse era fácil de entender...
Eu já não sei se sei o que é sentir o teu amor, não sei o que é sentir.
Se por falar, falei, pensei que se falasse era fácil de entender...
É o amor... que chega ao fim.
Um final assim, assim é mais fácil de entender.

Eu já não sei se sei o que é sentir o teu amor, não sei o que é sentir.
Se por falar, falei, pensei que se falasse é mais fácil de entender...
Eu já não sei se sei o que é sentir o teu amor, não sei o que é sentir.
Se por falar, falei, pensei que se falasse era fácil de entender...

myslovitzian

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SXPgjzLG2iQ

And even left alone one day
Ain't gonna change, it's not my world
Before me there's a road I know
The one I chose myself to go.


Yeah, perfect forever, always clever
Should I be and I should feel
Super cool but then I am a fool
But then it's not me.


And even left alone one day
Ain't gonna change, it's not my world
Before me there's a road I know
The one I chose myself to go.


See, I like the evenings
Like to get hidden for quite some time
And yet, I like against my nature with ostentation
To stay alone, climb to a tree top
And keep looking skyward
No sensation, but I know that right here
For another time
Can't be who I wanna be
And even left alone one day
Ain't gonna change, it's not my world
Before me there's a road I know
The one I chose myself to go
Nights, some nights I awake to
Go out though I hate it
Look at this chemical world
Smelling like grayness, like paper love sadness
With you and me and someone else
Don't know who, wants to be
For several years
With obsession and with ostentation
Left alone a while I've seen that guy.


And even left alone one day
Ain't gonna change, it's not my world
Before me there's a road I know
The one I chose myself to go.

by comparison

I am a music freek ... cannot live without:
- at home, listening to radio, my music, my friends' music;
- on the way, always with a walkman;
- at work, partly listening to music... at times, it turns difficult to concentrate.

Music reminds me of places I saw, people I met, feelings and situations I've been through. There are people associating other people with smells (mostly, perfumes) or moments in life. Well, I associate people with songs/ music genre, and also animals. Strange, uhmmm?! Since childhood I've had a very developed sense for comparisons, but strange comparisons: people vs. animals. No special reason for that! However, that helps me pick my friends and the people I go out with... Either strong and powerful, or forget it! :) At times, it can become very funny. I would start smiling in the street and the ones around couldn't really understand why: am I crazy? am I friendly? am I open?

It's just a way to drive further.

i know partly what i don't know

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DTy3WA0Pq8M&feature=related

it is very representative of my current feelings - though not necessarily targeted to one particular person. it's a general feeling inspired by the many people I have met recently.

I wish myself a bike, curly hair and an irresponsible character. why bother so much?!

feeling 22, acting 17

one of my close friends brought katie melua back to me ... feel very outlandish lately. looking forward to the days in budapest and the week in paris. after last year's new eve in skopje, i did make a progress this year: paris :-)... the will to re-visit paris overwhelmed me when still in london this summer. buuu: what a rough city! paris seems like a compensation for london. haven't been there for over two years now... and now it will be in totally different circumstances.

Transitioning

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdTRCw4-DM4: the song brightening my Monday morning :-)

After a great weekend, I am looking forward to an expectedly eventful week.

Editing this post two hours afterwards: I am not very sure of the previous sentence... anyways!

I am wondering why everything has to be so complicated. Lately I've been missing Romania a lot. After a weekend with Irina, I can only get more convinced that there are a lot of things I can only find back home, i.e. in that dirty, still rough, uncivilized Romania. hmm... especially after becoming ever more aware that abroad you/ I'll always be treated as a foreigner no matter how hard-working, highly educated and whatever you might be.

quo vadis?

Sigur Rós Radio

Surprises come in a chain... and discoveries too: Sigur Rós Radio on last.fm.

That is what I call my mood music: so many bands I have never heard of and all so great. It's what I call music for connaiseurs :-) Among them, The Album Leaf, Explosions in the Sky and Amiina (try "Ugla") are magnificient.

great to know!

"Með suð í eyrum við spilum endalaust" (With a buzz in the ears we play endlessly): the new album 2008 from Sigur Ros.
And I didn't know anything: gooosh, how disrupted from reality I can be!
If I were to do something I really love in life, that would be Design & Musical Background :-) I am positive there will come some time when I am to bring my dream into being.